pages of a fantasy - Legends of The Cosmos

I am Machree.
A few years ago I was a nobody but now I have a feeling the world will know me.

I have been experimenting with a melody on my guitar. I wanted to create my own style. Something I will be remembered for long after I die. I started to write a piece on sheet music.
I was sixteen when I started.
Every night I would stay up late with my guitar scribbling notes, replacing some, sustaining a few.
After I finished the first four riffs I noticed that it would be far too impossible for a boy of my speed and ability to pull it off, but I decided to give it a try.
I ended up missing a lot of the notes so I decided to ease up with the tempo.
One night, I was eighteen, I finished arranging the four riffs.
I had in my hands six pages of the greatest melody. I played it that night and I found myself floating in the cosmos.
The greatest high I ever felt.
But it was not enough. I decided to make it into a symphony. For four years I kept writing. Making riffs, setting tempos and putting down notes.
Come to think of it, I do not remember ever doing anything else.
I don't even remember ever eating nor going to the bathroom.
But, anyways, I now have a masterpiece. Twenty four sheets of a great melody that could bring the tone deaf to the dwindling heights of the cosmos.
This music will put my name on the walls of fame.
I will become a legend.

EULOGY:
Today is a sad and dark day for all of us.
And even more for the dear parents of Machree.
Today we will bury a young boy of eighteen.
A quiet and kind young man of great talent.
A dear friend, a strong spirit and a loving brother.
My brother, Machree, had dreams. Dreams to become a great musician.
Dreams of writing music that could change the world.
Dreams that may no longer come true.
May we remember him in our hearts as a masterpiece in himself.
And as we lay him down to his eternal bed, may his first and last song
be heard, reverberate and resound in the hearts of all who hears it.
By mother's request, Machree's original, his masterpiece;
"Legends of The Cosmos."


-Orville "chubby" Basas

pages of a fantasy - Stranded

I open my eyes in dreadful fright as I wake in grim of silence
I lay full length and regained my sight and felt woe in all excellence
Wires and hoses run all over me and movement I cannot muster
All I can see is this light 'round me but thoughts are getting clearer
I cannot speak and I cannot breath but why am I still the living
I cannot feel and I cannot feed, all I can do is but hearing
Hearing the world sustaining the dying and to preserve a worthless life
I curse you for calling this living, I curse life for being my strife
I cannot dream and I cannot sleep, I cannot wake up from this slumber
I cannot live and I cannot weep even death would seem much better
I lie awake each night and listen, hear the living talk about my state
And all the words that they have spoken were pointless to my nearing fate
Stranded between death and the living, an aimless thought of the undead
A voiceless voice of a soul pleading for death to come and take my head
I beg you please, take this life from me, take your machines and let me be
I beg you death, show me your beauty, come for me and set me free
Come, take me out of this misery, death take me to across the sea
death of life please show me your pity, take me out of my misery
I am not dead nor am I living, I cannot go back nor forward
No ounce of strength to me returning, fated to be a fate less bastard
I pray for death but death never comes to lay me my eternal bed
Tied to machines that gently hums. tied to machines that gives me dread
Pull the plug and give me liberty, please take this life away from me
Let me die in peace with dignity, please take my breath away from me
Angel of death do me your duty, please take my thoughts away from me
Give me death which I thirst for, Please take these dreams away from me
I beg you, stop this insanity, take this soul out from this body
I call your name, death, please hear my plea. put me out of my misery

-Orville "chubby" Basas

pages of a fantasy - the mind

Come with me to the valley of the shadows
To the darkest pits of which no mortal knows
Where the howls of hell are heard as melody
Where our distorted views of life and beauty
Are burning tides for the heart of the many
Etched in every man's bleeding heart's fantasy
Where listening to the sound off tolling bells
Echoing with sorrow in the empty wells
Wakes us all from slumber in the depths of hell
And gives us more of those bleeding hearts to sell
Where we sit with the wolves, dine with the reaper
Where we lay with death, take joy in the fever
Where the pleasures of life that shadows cover
Will always be on the road to the never
Wine will flow to intoxicate your being
To distort you from the joy you are seeking
Food will run to corrupt you and your thinking
It will make you see what you are not seeing
Air will blend with sweetness intoxicating
The streams will merge with nectar so enlightening
You will see the great fragrance of the dying
How mountains would replenish the starving
You will see the wind's chill comfort the crying
You will witness the great arch angels falling
The rivers will love all those who are mourning
And it will turn them all to a reigning king
Come with me to a world of death surpassing
Where all creatures are equal, dead or dying
There your thoughts of anguish are celebrated
And melancholy becomes the artist's bed
There the malevolent and the demented
Are revered, honored, distinguished, clothed and fed
There the foul roam free, the utopia of dread
There strident, painful cries resound in your head
There the sighs of the singed pacify the meek
And the hunger for death gives strength to the weak
There the wise surrenders to nature's mystic
And the fallen angels would dare not speak
Come with me to the valley of the shadows
A wondrous place which all life and beauty shows
To the darkest deepest pits of which no mortal knows
A great white river of grim, anguish and woes

-Orville "chubby" Basas

Beauty after the rain

LOVE: So beauty, child, it has been a long while
who do I give credit for that great smile
Never have I seen you radiantly glow
Curious as I am, would you let me know
BEAUTY: He has found me, Love, HE has held me tight
He has made everything feel oh so right
I want him, Love, to take me forever
I want his swear that no one could sunder
LOVE: Who?
BEAUTY: An I think he loves me too
LOVE: You think?
BEAUTY: Oh, no. I feel it so
LOVE: What else do I don't know?
BEAUTY: We knew each other back when we were young
But our love song was never sung
He went away somewhere and stayed so long
But now he is back and we sang our song
He said Beauty's child is now a lady
I feel like fate has done so much for me
LOVE: Fate? I thought you did not believe in her
So I guess now you found your true lover
BEAUTY: Oh yes, Love, and this one is a keeper
I will not let him go now that he is here
LOVE: After that talk in the rain
After that fear and that pain
BEAUTY: Oh, Love, this is different
This is not your little game
LOVE: I know, I know, I have heard your song
I am confident it will last long
I am just saying after the rain
I hope that we would not do that again
I hope that you would really be happy
I hope he would love you true, dear Beauty
BEAUTY: I am confident he will, I feel him
Now I know it is he I've been missing
I felt it all last night when I held him
I want him to love me and me be loving
This heart is beating, I know it is he
After a long time I am happy
LOVE: That I can see, I am happy for you
Thank God someone has finally come through
So may you prosper and may your love grow
And may your radiant glow forever show

-Orville "chubby" Basas

the jar and the lid - a love song

R.J.:
It's been ten years since I saw you last
Ten pointless years of life living fast
Ten years since I lost the sight of you
Ten lost years of doing what I do

You were beauty's child and poetry
That child, that art is now a lady
Oh that radiant glow I saw in you
Now burns brighter, burns a brighter hue

Would you believe me if I told you
I have loved you since I first saw you
Would you believe that I say it true
Would you believe me and love me too

BEAUTY:
Oh, for so long I have been waiting
And for so long I have been waiting
To find that one that has been missing
To really be loved and be loving

This heart has been wandering too long
Too long have I waited for your song
Do you know that I loved yo then
But was too young to know way back when

So just take my hand and dance with me
Just hold me close and sway me gently
Just dance with me 'till the sun goes down
Just dance with me 'till all else are gone

-Orville "chubby" Basas

stealing sunset

Once under the gray twilight of a dawning light
Before her world would shine and make captive your sight
T'was a cold foggy morning to begin her day
And fate, with her, was already starting to play

By dawn, Beauty's eyes have seen radiance in a lad
He has seen radiance in the grace that beauty had
Yet not a word between them were spoken at all
Perhaps they were too young to know they were to fall

By morning Beauty's heart was exploring the world
Taking in lessons from the love songs she has heard
Yet no one else has seen her radiance and beauty
No one seeing the lady she can and will be

Come mid day she has learned to love another
Yet never seeing that radiance in a lover
She was loved yet fate knew she deserved much better
So she learned from what happened - getting much wiser

By that afternoon when it was time to come home
Tired and restless with no one to have but her own
The radiant lad too, had no one to call his own
Seeing each other and wanting to call it home

Before sunset they finally took time to dance
Giving credit to fate for all the pre-dawn glance
So they danced away waiting for the love to end
Yet sunset never came, nor waiting 'round the bend

-Orville "chubby" Basas

the honest liar

Eyes wide shut, I ran out in to the open air
Breathing in so the fresh air of lit cigerettes
Taking in the deafening silence of traffic
I bow down to see the the bright skies of burnt dark clouds
Open my eyes tight and bore what I can not bare
I burn myself on how ever cold this world gets
Chocking on the nothingness that makes this world sick
The world is winning on the basis of no grounds
Find myself in paradise of some painful stare
Of, undoubtably, untamable, curious pets
Shaking their fists in love of some dead politic
Who said he would build mountains and ended up with mounds
Where am I drifting to, where have I been sleeping
How has it been for you, is irony leaking

Greatly, I admire the dead, for they are certain
Certain of their every whim and every movement
As for me I am not sure how my life proceedes
Is it left, right or is it somewwhere in between
Am I part of this society's unspoken
Unspoken for out of every moment
Because, inside me, life already planted seeds
That tells me to fade into the background and grin
Anything getting through in this senseless ranting
Are remains of your soul still alive and kicking

-Orville "chubby" Basas

all that jazz

Swoop me down with your guitar
And your subduing saxophone
Make me sway with those ivory
And bob my head to ebony
Make my heart pound with that soothing bass
Make me snap my fingers to that percussions
Make me tap my feet to that trumpet
take me high
Skad away, skad
Make me groove, make me move
Sing to me that melody
ring that beat so heavenly
Hit me with that beat
Hit me with music

-Orville "chubby" Basas

CAPTIVE

Never have I seen so much radiance
And, oh, all else found in the heavens
That when I look at you watching me
Sorry for having caged your beauty

You tried to make me understand you
And be happy for all that you do
I could not be what you wanted me
Sorry for having caged your beauty

You are too much of a great goddess
To be tied up to someone useless
Sorry i could not make you happy
Sorry for having caged your beauty

Blame me not for I love you that much
So much to build my world by as such
Structures to keep you all for just me
Sorry for having caged your beauty

Denny me not my distorted views
Leave me the right to light my own fuse
Take the chance to find what you could be
I have no right to cage your beauty

-Orville "chubby" Basas

to rise and fall

I do not care who you are, what you do or what you want to be
Burn the bridges, ride the tide, paint the town, cast them all out to sea
Light the pipe of peace, live a life of ease and penny royal tea
Let music hit you, paint a diff'rent hue and come along with me

Sleep now with the fire, be the honest liar, let music take control
Live life without fear, treasure every tear, free your mind and soul
Appreciate the arts, mend and touch some hearts, keep track of what they stole
Let all your hair down, truly smile or frown, But keep stomping your sole

Shake your fist to tyranny and wage a war for good and beauty
Call things what they are, let them not go far, leave all their dignity
Fight for the righteous, learn what is taught us, seek serendipity
Remember the dead, hear what they have said, lay people down gently

Love those who love you, hate if you have to but never you despise
Love simplicity, know complexity, always ask to be wise
Love true, love sweeter, give all you muster, never fall prey to lies
Hold hands with your love, love free like a dove, hold your love as it dies

When your life closes, refrain from noises, respect your deaths angel
Live free, reach higher, live to be better, do what you are able
Accept your demise, just like with your rise, it's unavoidable
go out with blazes, smiles on their faces, sleep well in your cradle

-Orville "chubby" Basas

lone

Death is now my friend and companion
As life dennied me her compasion
Now I step into a darker light
As angels cast me out from his sight
I lay making love with Misery
As the World dennied me her beauty
I dine with Sorrow and drink her wine
For Happiness turned away from mine
I sit with Dread under starry skies
Joy was taken away from my eyes
I sing with Distruction by the fir
For all your truth was but a liar
I dance alone beside this river
For you are by myside no longer

-Orville "chubby" Basas

torment

I lose myself in your heartfelt tears
I feel your pain, your heartache and fears
Your torment makes me want to love you
To love you better, to love you true

You tell me things he has done to you
Happy memories of brightest hue
The pain he caused and heaven he brought
The wine and the songs and beauty's thought

You tell me these and you love him still
You live in pain only he can kill
You long for him still, though he has gone
You still see him as the only one

All though I know that I should not fall
For one who gave another her all
For I know you still love the other
Though I am here to love you better

Your heart is still his, all though broken
But my stagnant heart you have stolen
I know that you would never love me
As you love him in all his glory

So her I am with all time to spare
Listening to your misery bare
Wishing that I were he you long for
To have, hold and love you to the core

But I am not, so I should not be
Wanting to have, and you to love me
But still, here I stay, lending an ear
Wiping your face free from any tear

-Orville "chubby" Basas

truth is

an angry, violent cry shakes the walls of Angels' Hill
as the words she spoke, in your heart, resounding still
and now tears flood your eyes as her words are sinking in
truth really does hurt, huh? tell me, how long has it been?

how long has it been since you thought of not loving?
how long has it been since you took joy in hurting?
was it not you who said that you will never love again
when you had your heart broken way back when?

since she left you, you have not been the same.
since she left you, you played this game.
a game of lies and deceit that you called Love's.
but the point of Love's game is to be loved.

yes, she has hurt you, but that was her loss,
you should have risked loving again no matter the cost.
instead you explored and played with other hearts
and now it comes back to you and your pain again starts.

after all you have done, do you expect this girl to trust you?
after all your games, you expect someone to love you?
truth is, you are a good friend, but you are not a lover.
truth is, you are loved, but you are not a lover.

now you are burning, now you are hurting
now you feel how it is to be loving
now you can see just what you have done
now you know you are not yet a man

not a man who deserves to be loved by her.
but I trust you know you could be better.

the tripper

How does one get over the greatest love that he has felt?
How does one get over a loosing hand that he was dealt?
How does one survive when everything he lived for is gone?
How does one love again, as when he loved, the other ran?

Now, am I to endure this life as a loveless being?
To walk around and haunt the streets, heart empty but beating?
A soulless and aimless man to stride throughout the evening?
A loveless, empty demon,a creature wanting - burning.

Oh, now tell me this, What the hell am I suppose to do?
When all I thought in this worthless life, thoughts of loving you
Oh, now tell me this, What the hell am I suppose to be?
When all I think is you and why did you leave me?

Now am I to live this life as an angry bitter pill?
To walk around and haunt the streets, to wound but never kill?
A soulless and aimless man to stride throughout the evening
A lonely empty demon, a creature wanting - burning

now I am the tripper, loveless, haunting, bitter
now I am the jackal, an aimless, soulless reaper
now I am the devil, a wanting, burning creature
now I am the lonely, longing, thinking of her

-Orville "chubby" Basas

I am Alive

I, as it was, never thought of loosing you
I, as it was, thought the love of ours was true
I, as it was, thought the world of only you
I, as it was, paint the world a diff'rent hue
WAS I wrong to have given you all I am
WAS I wrong to love you and keep myself warm
WAS I wrong to love you with all that I am
WAS I wrong to put all my life in your arm
DEAD was the world to me, you were the only
DEAD was all else when I gazed at your beauty
DEAD, all stood still when I was in your embrace
DEAD was everything when I was in your grace
TO love you was all that I was living for
YOU went your way and left me to love no more


-Orville "chubby" Basas

I, as it was

I am alive, but am I living my life?
As I believe love is part of living
It seems my life ended when I lost your love
When your love was all that kept this man going.

I am a man, but do I stand on my feet?
As I believe you made me a better man
It seems I am in fear. I am in defeat
When It feels you are the best and only one.

I exist, but what is existence but grim?
As I believe I am no longer complete
It seems I died and living in misery
When it seems you were who knocked me off my feet

I think, therefore, I am, I am left alone
As I believe that you were a part of me
It seems I am none because you are my home
When I know you are my life and dignity

I am dead, nothing but an empty vessel
As I believe you are all that is in me
It seems I am alive, but I am empty
When all I know is you and your beauty

I ask you, put me out of my misery
As I believe, life is nothing without you
It seems that I should have been dead long ago
When you left me alone with no where to go.

-Orville "chubby" Basas

stand

BROTHER: She has loved you more than anything and anyone has done

She gave to you her strongest arm and her ever shining sun

She has given a gift to you that you never can repay

but open your eyes and look around, that was but yesterday

Your once bleeding heart is bleeding no more

And for three years running you locked your door

I know you were hurt but it's time to stand

The happiness you seek is by your hand

HE: Then tell me how, my brother, for my heart is no longer young

For three silent years my heart could not love, my heart has not sung

I want to move on, my brother, but my heart is still in fear

Will I be able to love another as I once loved her?

Brother, I fear I could not love better

Anyone at all, as I have loved her

I want to move on, my brother, I do

But am I ready to love a love true?

Am I that ready to be loved and have so much of that pain?

Suppose I am rushing. I would love and get burned up again.

Or suppose I will not burn, but be a burden of a love

Am I ready to risk, to hurt, to cage a free flying dove?

I tell you, I have not been that better

As now I think of love, I think of her

I want to move on. I say this true

But am I ready to love just like you?

BROTHER:Your once bleeding heart is bleeding no more

So pick up your head and burst through that door

Risk it all, risk all that is in your hand

Now pick up heart, and by all means, STAND.

"Across the River"

Lying still, bleeding out on the wooden floor
Satisfied and quite excited as the sickness is no more
The tormenting waves of the river, bashes me no more
As we inch closer and closer to the darkened shore

Thank all the heavens, I'm no longer life's whore
I have left all sorrow and those rotten to the core
No longer will I feel any pain and sorrow
I paid my toll to the boat man, to my home forever more

I paid my toll of two coins for the service I implore
I take this ride across the river and the world, ignore
A world full of thieves and to kill they outpour
A world i so loved and now leave to return never more

And as journey is ending, my absurdity into smiling
As I rejoice in not existing, lying bleeding on the floor
All the works stolen, all my grief not spoken
my spirit they have broken and my beauty they ignore

But all that now matters not, I know I have done a lot
But not recognition I got as we got closer to the shore
I am no longer, life's whore, pain and sorrow I feel no more
As i lie dying on the floor

-Orville "chubby" Basas

"Ludwig Wittgenstein's Cry"

For everyday I fall deeper with everything you do
For every time i get closer I fall again for you
I try each night to forget you, set myself free from this
Unsavory winter of wanting someone else's - bliss

I fool myself each morning - everything is alright
I'll stop myself from wanting to take her home each night
I'll do my best to fight it, i know that she is not mine
Though every time I see her, in my eyes she's sweetest wine

A loving force- a voyeur- this is what I'm reduced to
Forced by self to love from far a pale and a fading rue
A shadowed heart- a broken heart- wanting just to be loved
But as my love belongs to another- can this be solved?

Each night I take to dreamland every woe and want of love
Come morning as I see her again, I fall in love
A fool playing a fool's game what chance do I have?
For her to take me as I am and be the one she loves

How i wish you would take all of me
But reality bites, we're not meant to be
You are a whole, I but an entity
Fated to see I can't have what makes me happy

How I wish that you could love me
But reality bites, your love is he
You are loved, I a nobody
Fated to fall deeper with someone that should not be

-Orville "chubby" Basas

tribute

A burning old man of words and wisdom
A thundering voice of soothing verses
A roaring power from heaven's kingdom
A tender lover of man's restlessness

A voice whose words could open people's eyes
A mind that labeled the cheapest lies
A soul that has heard the people's cries
and made unsilent all the silent sighs

He talks of his land, the people and life
Verses of the people's pain, death and strife
Lines of how his people has been oppressed
The lives that endure what fortune has missed

He stated three seasons in this nation
Two seasons of wether one degration
The sunny, the rainny and election
The third just another chance for poison

I heard Him on a radio frequency
and just for an hour I found His beauty
He woke the hungry poet inside me
Gave me a new found love for poetry

I heard him strum and sing a song of his
I, for that moment, was in state of bliss
To not reas his work is truly a crime
The greatest free poet of His and all time.
-Orville "chubby" Basas

silence

Lady love, does she avoid me? Does she not hear me sigh?
Does she not hear me call to her? Is silence where I lie?
this Godforsaken silence rings, it maddens me to hear
a silent ringing around me. It throws me in to fear
To call out for her in loudness and an answer comes none.
Lady love, does she avoid me? Am I forgotten one?
The fear turns to anxiety, the silence turns me mad.
in the back of my head, she's the best I ever had.
but silence has taken it's toll and anger has set in.
What have I done to have silence? Tell me, what is my sin?
Am I cursed for I loved too much, that silence is my home?
An I wonder where she is now. Where does Lady love roam?
Am I doomed never to hear her? Am I doomed in silence?
Or is she the one who cursed me the grim of silent fence?

So I doze off to silent sleep to be accustomed with it.
To be alone in silent woods with no one but my wit.
But silence can be maddening, in time I'll loose me too.
This silent ringing lullaby will torture me of you.
So bring it on, I'll take the burn, slumber with the fire
and throw me down the pit of pain, bury me a liar.
At least I'll know you would hurt me than have silence do it.
I would rather hear you curse me than curse me with the quiet.
-Orville "chubby" Basas

shy one

when all the world around me falls
and when all turns to frustration
the heavens would not take my calls
and angels just show deception

when clouds grow heavy in the sky
and rain ours just as heavy
when I can't find the answers why
and rest just seems to avoid me

when all hell breaks loose around me
and the world just would not shut up
I start to loose sight of beauty
and just slowly start to give up

you wipe away the frustrations
with your mischievous little smile
with your antics and your actions
you could make my day all worth while

you drown out the pain and anger
with a blink of "beautiful eyes"
you could make the world all better
your "nguso" brighten up the skies

all your wise cracks and smart words
how you dance to whatever song
your amazement with ants and birds
makes us feel like nothing is wrong

how you run to greet your mother
how you laugh with the smallest things
how your lips look with "bugkos hair"
how you stare when your mother sings

if you just know and understand
all that your mother and I felt
when we reached out to hold your hand
we could feel both of our hearts melt

-Orville "chubby" Basas-